Tonight, I am crying again. I'm so happy to see you, to be with you. At the same time I'm so sad and regretful that I left before. I wish we could turn back time. To the time where I can freely hold your hand. Where i can kiss you and hug you and love you. And I love you. I still do. I never stopped. And I think no matter what, I will still always love you some way, somehow.
But tonight I have decided to stay strong and patient. I prayed for this. I prayed for another chance to even just get a glimpse of you. And I was given so much more. So I will stay grateful. And someway, somehow, I hope you still feel my love.
I keep thinking why you decided to respond to me positively when I reached out my olive branch. I overthink obviously. You can still have a tinge of feelings for me. Or you may just be using me to pass the time. And I am using you. I am using you to feel less lonely and alone. I am using you to make me feel like i miss you less. To make me hallucinate that there could still be an us in the future. I am so foolish and hopeless. But I do love you.
