And so one afternoon a few weeks ago, I decided to meet up with a guy I've been talking to on OkCupid for an entire month. He's not my type at all (except he's tall) but he seemed really nice and respectful. We went to this bar at the next town and I guess I wouldn't shut up so he kept making me drink beer. And then we had shots of Capt Mo. While this was happening, he was already trying to hold my hand and all. I was a little bit tipsy at that point (at 7pm lol) and when he tried to kiss me, I just followed suit. Well, let's just say that night, I tried catching up with a lot of the dating milestones I've missed so far - in a sexual concept. He dropped me off at home and we continued flirting via text after that.
What do you know. My inner slut was rejoicing at the attention. So earlier this week, we went out again and we ended up having pizza and "watching" a movie at his place. Little did I know that I would almost lose my virginity that night.
Well, actually, I kinda thought it might happen. So I came prepared in my sexy underwear and clean shaven body. But mentally, I was telling myself not to let it get too far. I wanted to practice my make out skills, that's all. And besides, it was only our 2nd date. And I'm not that much of a slut. Plus, when I told my friends about our first date, they were slut shaming me about why I made out with him. I'm like, we are in 21st century America, people. But whatever.
So yeah. When he was about to do it, I stopped him because a) I was slut shaming myself and b) I had an idea that I wanted a more romantic man and setting for my first time. A bit of effort wouldn't hurt.
Honestly, this guy and I? We're not really compatible in any way. Like we have nothing to talk about. But I like the sexual attraction between us, you know. That's why I still went out with him. But then again, having nothing in common is actually one of the major reasons why I haven't let him pop that cherry yet. I want to have sex with some one who I'll see a few more times after, and actually enjoy a bit of dating or something. And then maybe I can just go and have one night stands after that.
And I've been seeing and talking to a few other guys aside from him as well. And a couple of my friends are telling me to wait and choose. I mean other people sell their virginities for hundreds of dollars. The least I can do is lose mine to a decent enough guy.
But on this cold Friday night, I just wish I could just scratch the itch and just go fuck somebody immediately. But alas, while this city is filled with willing guys, this virgin can't... At least not yet.
