I want to tell you...

There are a lot of things that I want to share - to my friends, to my family, even to strangers. But I can never find the courage to tell them in person. 

I want to tell people how scared and confused I am. But how do I tell them that without sounding like a complete loser? I want to tell people how hopeful I want to be, but I'm dreading the thought of major changes. I want to tell people that I hate being fat - I can't wear nice clothes to make them boys go notice me and that sucks. I want a relationship but I don't want to give my heart away because someone might break it. I want to tell people that I'm tired of my parents smothering me, and that I want to go and live on my own. I want to tell people that I am neck-deep in debt. And I want to tell people that I am just sick and tired of being a second-rate person. 

But I guess I'm just really scared of being judged and seen negatively. I can't even trust my friends with my insecurities, doesn't that tell you anything?